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What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

12.06.2025 07:34

What’s one positive trait you’ve gained because of BPD?

We were not on the streets..

Why do we forgive? Because if we don,t

One was a lump hammer, another was a iron chisel.

Has anyone ever had sex with their cousin? How did it start, and would you do it again?

Also my liver and lungs are fatally diseased!

Where the ultimate outsiders.

I could never make a relationship work though!

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Insight, and i can spot a wrongin from 3 miles away.

The coal was sharp, and i usually had no underware! So my bare arse ,was cut and rossened on the coal..

That life, was meant to be , as the world teaches us great lessons, and leaves us many gifts.

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He said i reminded him of an old aunt ,who used to beat him, and when the menapause came, she was placed in a mental home and never was released ,until she died.

Then later on when my husband had gone to the bar..she started telling me, that they where having a affair, and that he loved her much more then me ,and other loads of visious lies.

When he wanted one of his lessons to be taught!

Why do I keep waking up at 4 AM?

And i lived it daily.

I don,t even have a pension.

.I left my 2 sons and my husband to do it. Instead of spending the day with them

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One of his many names for me was Runt .He like that it rhymed with (well you know)

Even in the coal hole, i said the lines in my head..

5 of us kids, and it wasn’t a big house.

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I forgave my father, and i took care of him ,until his death in 1999..my mum left us on the 29th Jan 1998.

We wern’t close any more, the family fractured, after my Mothers death, and seeing me annoyed them ,as i was the familys scapegoat..

My place (mostly )was the coal hole..it was a small room heaped with coal .

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I might have to go back 30 generations or more..

He isn,t a very sexual person at the best of times!

He had many friends, who didn,t know the home devil he was, for his sake ,i never enlighted them either.

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He was dying to do it , i knew.

The only way to get rid of it forgood ,is sommence therapy,

Those are used to try and block the pain, like that of my life out..

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My twin will have involuntary pissed himself, but not me at least not, that day!

I of course replied” arh beautiful!

He’d bring us out ,and we would form the position .

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One cannot hold on to bitterness.

Because huge Trauma like mine is alive.

I had many talking therapys , but they just don,t work.

The same beautiful brown eyes my mother loved so much!

I do have abandomment issues but they come from being left alone ,without my mum, or any of my family in a incubator for 4 months.

My only sister also couldn,t make her life work.

Im still living with it.

One cannot live in the past .

I had hoped to write a book about this .

This is soul school!.

Although he,d calmed down a bit ..he still shouted his orders at me and thought , my older sister would be better at the job..

Do all the shopping, and cooking and look after all the dogs.

It will be my last birthday ,as im dying of a brain tumor and 8 other autoimune diseases.

BPD only comes to a person who has suffered childhood trauma.

But there where , these other acts only us 2 girls, would receive, (When id have rather had his lump hammer , and chisel.).

And if you hold on to hate you only die inside yourself,!

I immediatly know and see what their chidhood was. I tell them you had a awful time in childhood.

Then he’ d take out his beloved lump hammer ,show it to the kids.

It was going to be , some day.

Its mostly always from childhood abuse .

But im a psyci anyway, and i read energy and people, .

And i know him well ,and every thing about him. This relationship, is the only real one iIve been able to keep!

I waited trembling.

This is how, and why children get BPD.

He knew the spot.

But ive been too sick for many years..

I was scared of men, in general

I worked then as a chef ,and a very good one.

I only stopped writing poetry recently, because , of my brain tumor

I couldn’t, believe it.

She got all dolled up, but it looked as she was dressed up to play the part of , Florence Nightingale ,as she descended down the cottage stairs ,like a Queen.

Stress hormones Adrenaline and Cortosol ,would have flooded my brain, and they never left it!!!!

I was grabbed out of my mother hung upside down, and rushed up to the prenatal ward, to spend 4 mths alone, with, only medical staff.

Ther’s very good reasons why i was left alone.

You don’ t get a state one here , in England ? until your at least 67 yrs old ! Im 63.

Mine was extreme ,and lasted 19 years

We all went to grammer schools

My dad was a alcholic psychopath, and violent in the extreme.

Thats being isolated in a house, locked up as a child .We never saw any people except in School and we had no relatives in Liverpool!

We born here on earth , for the soul to learn , the contrast, of heaven.

As she had lost her son ,to fatty liver disease!

And, all my friends down the years ,where users.

She died at 55 of colon cancer.

And don,t forget my 4 months alone, in the incubator. Knowing my brother in the womb and my mother voice .The baby knows she’s alone!

He was a brick layer (when he worked at all) and he carried his tools around ,hanging from a money belt.

Although we always gave her a kiss on the cheek. She would shrink away from it!

But he said ,he was sick of her anyway ,and only put up with her as i had a friend ,and seemed to be happy.

But it wasn’t much.

Everytime, i saw a chronically ill person in middle years.

Would this be the day?

He weighed in at 5 lbs .I was the second born, and i weighed 3 and a half pounds.

I got to know the terrible awful childhood, he had himself. And his Jolly Pub Persona.

He did pay me though, i made him (.After i’d trudged miles to get his pension ) Before ,it all was gone, over the pubs counter!

I have no regrets .

Put me off passion for life!!

With Catholic nuns and Church on Sundays.

They are buried together, in the same grave..

Im dying but, im not bitter.

All the time i was locked up.

I wasn’t taught any boundries, our home ,was like any war zone , and Dad told us, he had bodies buried, under the floor boards.

She said her life with him ,was love, and spoke to me of all the passion, it had brought her.

For him, I cleaned and cooked and shopped, and spent the whole day, doing a weeks work) in the only day off, i had, besides Sunday.)

But im an empath, and i help lots of people.

As is all addictions, people can’t leave off.

As i gave and gave ,everything to people, they began to use me.

She wouldn,t have been !

Took her away on holiday ,with us, my 2 pugs her dog, a Jack Russell.

And when you live in a life , of being terrified, and shocked, and permantly stressed; especially as a child born in to all this .

You’d think that being brought up for so long, in those terrible circumsatances ,i would know the ways of people ,and the world, but i wasn,t in , nor of the world .

My familys so full of ancestral BIG T Trauma.

One women pretended to my husband she wanted to see me for coffee ,and make friends.

I only knew my twisted world , and there, is no choice for a child but to live in it. Or Die in it!

I never cut or harmed myself..

But people really die of the Big T Trauma!!

But i went to school ,and was locked up evey evening , until he was off out on a bender..then mum would set us free, and we,d be bouncing off the walls,

And as runt ,of the litter .Which of course, i actually was!

Because , i didnt have the heart to hurt my friend.!.

She was a women, a mother with her own children!.

I think the readers, may guess!

He took out the hammer, and explained again, how the smallest tap ,of this hammer would kill me in a second.

His abuse (his own) began at 2 years of age. His mothers friend, sexually abused him, from the age of 2.

So he went home with my mum to her 2 other children.

She found it foreign!.

Its a big thing in the States for the last 25 years.

She married twice! .

As i do to all so called friends.?

I ended up cooking for her, and bringing her eveywhere with us.

He’d sit me down, and stand behind the chair, Then he’d make a great show of his beauty (the chesil )and place it behind my neck ,at the base!

We were all going out this night to a fancy resteraunt.

My mother wasn’t a tactile women ..only as babes could she touch us. After we grew ,she couldn,t touch any of us.

The apprentership one gets in Extreme Big T Trauma childhood is insight and extreme awarness.

I was very sick at this time too.

I was writing from the time i was a small child.

They look at me amazed ,and ask me how i could possibly know it?

I suffer greatly, because of BPD..

But, we were locked up after school.

A line in front of him, from the eldest to the youngest.

I watched his eyes light up and his twisted smile rejoice, in his joy of it all.

I said to her

What did i know ?

Why ? because Trauma depletes the immune system.you get terribley ill , with chronic disease from all the horror ,and stress of it.

He call us down, from where ever he stashed each one of us ,that day ! We were kept seperate.!

But im dying ,and its too late for me.

Trauma never leaves you! Its actually lives in the fashia ,of the body .The connective tissue.

Thats was my nicest nick name for him

As i said though i will be 64 on my last birthday!

It comes from Big T Trauma and is no fault of anyone who has it.

I did it because my mum asked me too!

When she asked me how she looked .

My mum and dad in the seventies!

Your thinking ,but those kids would have been street wise?

She was in good health!

Due to the real legacy of trauma (B.P.D)

I know ,a lot about trauma.

His mum and dad ,were Alcoholics!

Especially a lifetime of it.

Was to survive, this bastard.

At this time i had honed my heart to the same, as that of a lion and i knew i wouldn’t beg or cry ,nor plead.

My life is so biszare .

I was the most vunerable of my siblings. I was born small ,and was sickly ,and of course none of us could ever thrive!

And as she herself ,wasn’t kissed or touched as a child.

We could never speak unless he spoke to us!

Who then, do I blame.?

He said i’d end up like her, and he laughed his big rolicking bear of a laugh!

Im a true spealist, because i study it for years .And i still do..

19 years ,i spent with dear old papa.

Like some twisted love , they where addicted to each other

I had offered the whole expense of the holiday to her, free.

Another so called friend had bit the dust..

Ive learnt so much.

But it has taught me many things other people will , never know!

So i became my fathers slave and he hated me the most.

I was 9 years of age.

Youll pack your bags and leave Dorset.

We didn’t no it wasn;t normal life..we were isolated, and taken from Dublin in Ireland ,where our whole mothers family lived , to Liverpool in England!

I let him have the joy of his friends( that i would never know myself.!)

Rather to engertic for me ,with my terrible health, but i was left to run the house, it was a Cottage in Dorset.

Anyway ,i could never hold on to a relationship.

I was seconnd youngest,

I did write a poem about him though, and my mum.

Comes on , in middle age.

Im kind ,and give many things, inc money ,to any of persons in need. I have a groups of homeless beggars ..i help out daily. They all know me by name!

My family never makes their pension either.

Its like, taking poison, and hoping the other person will die.

Why did i forgive my father ?

As his daughter ,he didn’t even think I wouldn,t do it. (Look after him)

(And it was in our own minds.)

So, i spoilt her more .

I am a twin , my twin is a boy called Alan. I had a sister and 2 other brothers

Im constanly in a state of FLIGHT or FIGHT my whole life

She died young (from the stress and abuse of Big T Trauma) of liver cancer!

On the 31st of Jan this month .

I write beautiful poetry .

Her first husband, had been a gay man ,and he was a lovely person.

Anyway, i told my husband ,and he was gobsmacked.

And ive living now since 2005, on disablement .(Which is a pittance)

Yes, a stroke or heart attack is the reason on your death certificate.

He resisted the act ,that day.

Trauma lives in the body, as ive explained, but it actually this that kills you in the end.

So whats the point in blame.

But my sister and my other 3 brothers wouldn’t have come near him every again!

She loved him until the end.

But i am married 43 years to my husband this July !

The only rule us 5 kids had .

Being very nice and never wanting to say the wrong thing.

And who doesn’t know suffering?

She was deluded, and thought she could stay on for the reminder of the holiday!

I will be 64.

She stayed with him because she thought he,d grow out of it. He didn’t of course!

I forgave my father,, and in those years i cleaned and looked after him .